Changing my thoughts will change me - Life-Review

http://eqafe.com/i/arosouw-life-review-changing-my-thoughts-will-change-me

I had a similar life experience to the Interdimensional being in this Interview. I too, allowed myself to firstly attempt to compensate for the abusive harmful thoughts that existed within my mind, that led me down a path of adult depression and moodiness into looking for ways to basically -escape my inner reality - the thoughts that drove me daily closer and closer to my own suicide. When I realised that I could not escape who and what I had become and that I could not live with myself in this world, where being who you 'wanted' to be was not accepted and most certainly not affordable unless you have lots of money - I then attempted to change my thoughts into something that would change me into somebody I could 'live with.

So, this interview reminded me of the days I spent pouring over spirituality books, looking for a reason and cause for my existence, a way that I could transform myself through philosophy and spirituality into a new, special me. The emphasis here was on special - on wanting to no longer just be 'Andrea' - but to be a person others could look up to and 'respect. I moulded myself into 'a Wiccan' and when this did not work I transformed my inner thoughts into outer forces by meddling with demons on a ouija board and eventually becoming possessed by a dark force that slowly consumed me, until I again placed myself before death - as the symbolic role play of a girl fighting a demon in a battle between good and evil.

In the end as I was thrown back into a state of realising my aloneness with my own thoughts - and I had exorcised the demons I 'thought' were responsible for my inner demise - I soon realised that by awakening my old nature and returning to who I had always been when the proverbial dust had settled after my demon-encounter - that i would have to face this end point. This I found to be the most difficult - even more difficult that fighting off a legion of demons - as I was now having to face the layers of physical programming that was me, that was fighting as me as my patterns I had constituted since childhood. Each time I 'crashed' back from whatever new gimmick/profession or religion I was trying, I would come back to me - but find a different polarity experience where I was now either really shit, bad, ugly and useless, or feeling good, doing well and reaching for greatness. At the end of each cycle I got to see where I had just come from and how I spent months or years trying to live out that polarity to either avoid or get closer to the opposite polarity - and this we have all come to call 'Life'.

http://demons.desteni.org/

In the end I saw how all my attempts to run away into new age therapies, spirituality, religion and philosophies -was all so in vain - as what remained after I removed the inner polarities of good/bad and the desire to be more than my physicality - was truly a relief as I threw off the layers of expectations placed upon me by myself and through this world I had created through all the definitions and values of what it means to be human.

Join us either on the forums or in the DesteniIProcess Lite (where you first develop writing skills and become familiar with the tools used in DIP Pro) or DIP Pro - for those who are already comfortable with writing and self-disciple to take on the conscious, subconscious and unconscious conditioning through consistency and dedication.

For other Life Reviews: The Crazy Mother and Superman of the Streets

Demonology Forum perspective "Writing Self-Forgiveness on how the Fear of myself developed"

Original post: http://demons.desteni.org/forum/viewtopic.php?f=4&t=729&p=1456#p1456

Ok I suggest we start here with specific self forgiveness - I will show you how to take the information I indicate and find the key points to write self forgiveness on. Basically on each line I indicate you will look at where the point originated, how you have designed it through participation, and what are the thoughts, feelings, emotions associated. We will work with one point at a time before moving on.

Fear of myself.

[quote]Well, from an early age. Angry mother, made excuses for things "done wrong". Said imaginary friends did it. Learned deception/manipulation to cope. Better to be on her good side. Thus, a mask for always and our relationship is personality-based = in memories.[/quote]

Ok here you have already given us the relevant information of when and with who and how this happened - as well as a general overview of the memories that would be associated with it. Now it is necessary also for you to indicate what were your reactions, backchat thoughts, fears and behaviors developed.

For example:

Taking the point apart with self forgiveness:

With Self Forgiveness you want to start with the identifying firstly the core issue. Therefore your first line of self forgiveness is going to be very basic and from there you start exploring the who, what, how, when etc (all the info listed above) and bring that through into Self Forgiveness - I will show you how

The Structure of Self Forgiveness:

I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself…

Accepting: In this statement you are saying that you firstly forgive yourself for accepting the existence of the point as it is as it exists within your world and yourself - this could be the action, the words or the idea itself.

Allowing: In this statement you are forgiving yourself for allowing yourself to participate in the use of the word as the value you have given it and the deed - as the 'living part of a word'. So as an example:

(back to your writings)

[quote]Well, from an early age. Angry mother, made excuses for things "done wrong". Said imaginary friends did it. Learned deception/manipulation to cope. Better to be on her good side. Thus, a mask for always and our relationship is personality-based = in memories.[/quote]

I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry with my mother for using excuses.

Here you will see I have taken the first part of your statement and directly done self forgiveness on it.

Now the key with self forgiveness is not just to do 'general self forgiveness statements as I have done here and then move on. The key principle is to really go into each point - each part of your writings and see how deep you can go into the point. The deeper one goes into the point - the more effective you will be in releasing yourself from the entirety of the point as the entirety of the design of it. The Design of it - if you remember from my writings above - is to look at how, in relations to who, why, where, when and any reactions, thoughts, feelings, emotions and memories that are associated with the point.

So how do I know I am being specific enough?

Here one could take one part of the sentence and write out all the associated points for example:

[quote]"Angry with my mother for using excuses"[/quote]

(example)
"I remember sitting there listening to her making up excuses and I became so angry. I thought to myself you lying cow, it did not happen like that and now you are just making up excuses. Then I thought well I am not going to help you any more because you are just a liar. Then I started ignoring her and after that every time she would ask me to help I would lie and walk away. After a few years of listening to this I found myself talking badly about her to other family members and I really resented her because I felt she could not be trusted."

Now you have more information from which you are able to write self forgiveness. And as you will see in a moment - each time you write a line of self forgiveness you might find that the new point also requires expansion. This will happen if while writing you realize more. Allow yourself to write out self forgiveness on everything that 'comes up inside you' in relation to the point.

For example:

(now I take the first line from the expanded part - and well see what 'comes up' for further expansion)

I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into backchat thoughts towards my mother of 'you lying cow' as a reaction to what I was hearing.

Now you observe if there is more coming up inside yourself in relation to the above self forgiveness statement - you could for example have the following:

I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to yell at her 'you lying cow' as a reaction to what she was saying
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think 'you silly bitch' as reaction to what she was saying
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to slap her across the face, because of my anger towards what she was saying

Now you have written out in more detail any further experiences you remember having in relation to the 'lying cow part'. Now you are ready to move on to the next point:

[quote]Then I thought well I am not going to help you any more because you are just a liar.[/quote]

I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not want to assist my mother in the future simply because I was reacting in anger to what she said.
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into reaction of the mind as spitefulness (here you are naming the game of what you were doing) - because of what she said
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to punish my mother (here you are naming the game) for what she said by deliberately not wanting to assist her in the future, instead of letting the moment go through breathing.

Here you will notice I added : "instead of letting the moment go through breathing." This you can add if within the self forgiveness statement you have a realization of what you could have. Now you are self forgiving more than the original acceptance and allowance but also the acceptance and allowance of not correcting yourself in the moment, when actually the correction exists in you already as an understanding of what would have been best. You wont necessarily always add that part, so don’t worry if nothing comes up.

Now lets see if you can follow this example and do SF on the next point - using the flow as I indicated of simply writing out self forgiveness on everything that you remember or realize within the point you are working with:

Examples for the next point

"I found myself talking badly about her to other family members and I really resented her because I felt she could not be trusted."


I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk badly about my mother to other family members simply out of spitefulness and resentment
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use spitefulness and resentment as a tool of manipulation within myself to want to punish another, simply because I don’t know how else to deal with what is happening
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to manipulate others into thinking badly of my mother
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use resentment and anger and manipulation as a means of protecting myself - because I don’t know how else to stand up to my mother
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to protect myself against what my mother say, because I am afraid of what she will say
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of what my mother will say, because I hold the belief that 'mothers shouldn't lie'
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of what my mother might say because I am afraid that I will follow through on what she says and someday get hurt
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that my mother is evil for what she says
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that this situation with my mother is beyond my control, instead of simply letting go of what she say and realizing that I am not defined by what she says.
I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to what my mother says or does.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place my self trust in another instead of trusting myself here as the breath, self responsible for me
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not trust myself and therefore depend on the actions of others to determine my experience

Those were some basic examples - if you find some to be relevant please continue adding self forgiveness. Then see if you can now walk the following statement within specificity using SF:

[quote] Learned deception/manipulation to cope[/quote]

(do what you are able to and I will add suggestions of necessary - remember to support yourself to write out the Sf by asking yourself questions, what happens when I see, hear, experience this? When do I do it, what happens next, does something change or do I then do something new. Who do I involve? What are my feelings/emotions/fears, backchat thoughts in relation to the point? Is there more to it?)

Andrea's journey with demons

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I did not know you could have sex with demons!

Hi everyone my name is Andrea and I am here to introduce myself to you and give insight into how I found Desteni and how I walk with Desteni, within the principles of creating a better world for all.

Ok so the title sounds somewhat strange -but here is my strange story - explaining the background I came from and how I have assisted myself within the Desteni material, with the assistance of the most focused and committed people I have ever met!

When I left high school I wanted to work with horses - and that is all I wanted in life. Until I developed a physical problem with an old injury and had to leave my passion for horses behind. I then decided to follow my next passion which was esoteric healing/new age. I studied to become a Kinesiologist, Energy Medicine practitioner and Paranormal investigator!

But to continue this story I would like to take you a few years back -

After high school I became friends with a wiccan who other than worshipping Wiccan gods and goddesses was also into cruising around on the ouija board, stirring trouble with demons. I got involved with him in wiccanism/magic as well as communicating with troubled souls on the ouija board. Often we would get chased by ghosts and strangled by demons - but nothing quenched our desire to speak to 'the other side'. In this I was looking for an answer to my own life which I did not have a clue how to practically live. You see I had developed adulthood depression from the time my father died. I blamed myself for my father's death and nothing could replace the loss I experienced at never having a decent relationship with my father who himself 'suffered' adulthood depression. I yearned for my father and thus hurtled head first into the domain of demons and ghosts with very little regard for what might happen.

As I was studying Kinesiology - to at least pretend as if I was being a functional human, I was consumed within my own self created depression. 'If only my father could have loved me before he died' - this thought ran through my mind as the silent backchat that I carried with me all the time no matter where I was and what I was pretending to me.

I became very discouraged with having to live in the system. I saw it as a place where one either conforms or you die. I had seen my father suffer at the hands of the system and did not care to follow in his shoes - but in the end had decided to do so in anyway - by going down the road of depression towards possible suicide. I decided to study hard and I started my Kinesiology practice. I was very good at whatever therapy I applied because I was actually a very confident person when in the mood. Unfortunately I was not consistent and made many decisions through which I would compromise myself extensively.

The one decision I made was to remain in an abusive relationship. I met a guy when I had to leave my job where I managed horses due to the physical injury. He was from a big city and spoke all the right words, making me feel special and beautiful. I moved in with him where he was living with his mother. A few months later the emotional abuse started as simple suggestions that he does not want me to see my male friends anymore. By the time I realised what was going on it was to late - I had already convinced myself that what I was - 'in-love' with him and that I wanted to be with him.

By the time the physical abuse started I convinced myself that in the system I would be abused to earn a salary - so 'what difference does it make?' Over the years I had become extensively involved with my spirituality. I was working with wiccan guides often and found a hiding place from the abuse in my spirituality. As long as I could explain the abuse away as some 'higher lesson' - I was fine and could suppress that part of me which stood up in pride and asked 'Andrea what are you doing to yourself?'

The boyfriend found a job in a city one hour away from where we were living and we moved into an apartment loaned to us by a family member. I really enjoyed this because it gave us a sense of privacy. I was becoming more and more ingrained into my spirituality and one day I delved head first into absolute delusions of grandeur by allowing these spirits I communicated with to tell me that I am' god's disciple'. Listening to myself now I wonder how I got to that point of delusion - but when I was there experiencing the pain and frustration and fear - I survived in whatever form possible. So for months all I did was sit and talk to my guides. One day the guides introduced me to the gods sent to prepare me to do 'god's work' . This in a way kept me sane. I mean, being told you are god's disciple is actually quite a bonus when on a regular basis you are getting strangled by your boyfriend until you passed out. It made it all ok! LOL

The boyfriend was doing ok in his job so we decided to get our own cottage near where he worked. I enjoyed being a 'housewife' type by staying at home to cook and clean and play with my puppy. The nightly 'demonic' attacks by the boyfriend though were starting to take their toll. One night while in the midst of his attacks I decided that I has now had enough. I found myself walking to the kitchen, opening the drawer and taking out a knife. I swung around, adrenaline pulsing through me, and pointed the knife right at him. He protested, I threatened to stab him and in the end he convinced me to put the knife down and walk away. I realised that this was it, I had crossed a line and was now preparing myself to really hurt him or myself. I decided to phone a police friend of mine to remove me from this environment.

After this incident I moved in with my mom, but decided that I will rather stay with the boyfriend than get a job. When I confronted all my guides and gods who I had established this spiritual connection with - about how and why they would actually allow this man to abuse me and that I was sick of them telling me that I was being asked to walk through spiritual lessons - they finally confessed and admitted that they were actually one demon. The joke was on me.

And again - instead of walking away I could not face the world and having to take any form of self responsibility for myself in this physical reality - so I made a deal with the demon. I told him that he may possess me and have my body - if he would just let me rest and hide inside my body. He agreed but with one catch: he refused to go find work!!! Oh boy we were a funny pair. We would sit for hours - me possessed drooling on my bed pleading with the demon to go find a job for us to survive and him cursing that the system is fucked up and he wants nothing to do with it. In the meantime I was still in a relationship with the boyfriend simply so that he would pay for my rent and food.

I had started exploring spirit sex when I allowed myself to fall in love with one of the gods. The funny thing is that when this god revealed to me that he was actually a demon I found myself drawn into a dark world of spirit sex with demons. I really did not care and yet at the same time I was petrified of how it would all end. The demon constantly threatened to attack me and I found myself addicted to the rush. At this point I had stepped over a line which caused me to not know how to get back. My depression caused me to not be able to think effectively and the state of possession I preferred than having to step forth into my own body and take action. I started experimenting with taking my migraine tablets to see how drowsy I would get. I just wanted to sleep and I hoped that one day I could muster the courage to overdose and die.

One night the demon and his demon friends decided to call my bluff on killing myself. They start waking me up at night telling me that the time is coming nearer for me to go live with them in the dimensions. Due to the fact that possession had because so easy for me - in which I allowed the demon to take over my body completely - It was easy for the demon to just step into my mind and suppress me completely. This particular night the demon tells me that he will now be killing me. I find myself getting out of bed and floating inside my body somewhere while observing my body walking to the kitchen. He opens the kitchen drawer and takes out a knife. This is placed against my wrist and he starts pulling down and into the flesh. I panic as I realize that the agreement we had for him to just leave me alone - was no longer. He meant business. I stopped him from doing anything fatal but the next day had to contact 'the boyfriend' and tell him that the demon is trying to kill me and that we had to do something. He phones around and finds a group of people who specialize in exorcisms and a day late I am taken for an exorcism. The story continued a few months later - which eventually led to me going to a medium and being introduced to my guide - my actual guide that is…


On the desteniproddemons channel on youtube you will find my video series on this subject.

So continuing - I became close to my guide and I found him to be a great support. I was still experiencing depression and lack of self will, but focused on my work. At a Kinesiology meeting I meet Bernard and Sunette who were doing a talk about how Sunette leaves her body. I really enjoyed this talk as well as the fact that Bernard mentions that they speak daily to dimensional beings. I was fascinated by what they do and asked if they have people joining in for discussions or classes etc. They said I can visit any time because 'this is what they do everyday and night'. A few days later I visit them and sit in awe how the portal can have one being after the next come through and talk to us. I had fun.

I was invited to visit them again and started feeling comfortable amongst the group, as having found people I can relate to within my world of 'spirits'. Around this time my own world was falling apart. I had lost my financial support when the boyfriend just 'disappears' and when I finally get him to answer his phone he admits that he 'met someone else'. I was a wreck. My worst nightmare was folding in on itself and I had no where left to go. A day later Bernard phones me to find out how I am doing and I start crying. I go and visit them at which point Bernard and Esteni invite me to move in with them. I was amazed that a group of people will be so open and giving to someone they had just met.

For months after moving in with them I was focusing simply on getting myself stable again. A few months before moving in with them I ended up in hospital with high blood pressure and panic attacks. So starting this new life was a challenge for me because I was now on high blood pressure medication at the age of 28 and would become dizzy often - my body could no longer function under constant stress and fear.

While focusing on my own process of self honesty and self forgiveness - one of the major points I had to face was letting go of Jack - my guide. It was important for me to take back all self responsibility and to prove to myself that I no longer had to depend on another as a substitute for 'Self'. Therefore it was decided that Jack would no longer be my guide and I did not take this well. My mind was intertwined with and as Jack - therefore by not having my connection with Jack I experienced it at the time as if a part of my mind - a part of myself - was gone. Becoming functional in light of this, was not easy. I went through an extensive period of anger towards Jack and Bernard because just like the Desteni haters - I was fighting for my own limitation. I wanted to have someone to call my own and someone who would tell me they loved me. I was not fully ready to see that what I had placed into and as 'Jack' was myself and that I was petrified to stand up and give myself back to me - simply because I did not trust myself to direct me effectively without making harmful decisions. Each day that went by got easier as I worked with breathing, self forgiveness, writing and the consistency within not allowing myself to give up. Forgiving me for what I have allowed was not easy, and yet I faced it.


As we decided to start the Desteni web site and the DesteniProductions youtube channel - this new project which incorporated writing, video productions and internet management allowed me to focus on what I enjoyed and to not mull around in my mind, pining for Jack. It was months later that I started to emerge more and more out of my shell and to actually start taking pride in myself again. This had been a long road and I have faced many layers of self created personalities. The work and focus of the people here - just to assist me has been immense - and this assistance is available to all who decide to participate on these forums - therefore the proof is in the pudding - so to speak - that Desteni and those who form part of it truly understand and want to assist all who all willing to assist themselves to break addictions and stop self abuse.


What was realised while we were having lengthy discussions within the group was that an idea had been created by all of us, myself included of what life could be like, but that instead all of us were creating separate realities in our minds. This as each of us found existed as secret mind realities where each one is special and loved and adored. We realised that it was time for us as humanity to look at what is practical to be lived by all people on earth while in the physical, and what is to be stopped as fantasy in the mind. It was evident by using basic common sense that 'heaven on earth' does not have to be secretive, secluded realities only accessible to those who have money. Currently this is how the world functions - if you have money, you can buy your own 'heaven on earth' - but by doing this you are participating in a capitalist system which creates and exists as 'hell on earth' for millions of beings who share this planet with us.

In looking at all the decisions I have made in my life, I too realised that each decision I made was based on the simple desire to be special in the eyes of others and simply to survive. Therefore by writing down my life experience I could see how I was attempting, just like every other person to 'get what I wanted'. What I wanted though as you are able to see from this overview of my life, was not practical and was not supporting myself to live effectively here in this physical reality. It was all about secret mind desires to be powerful and desirable. I realised that this is actually what is behind the decision that each human makes. In each human is the desire to fulfill oneself through what experiences one has in the mind through thinking and feeling. Each person wants to feel good, feel special, feel desired, feel like they are in control. Therefore we follow thoughts which direct us into make life decisions in what to participate in - to get these feelings. Therefore as the human - I realised that we have become addicted to energy and thus each one of us tacitly agrees to all forms of abuse on this planet, just so that we can participate in our little world through which we seek to have power over others and to consume to our hearts desire. Each of us, like myself have also designed the perfect justifications why we all get to accept the current world conditions as it is. We have all agreed that human nature is acceptable simply because 'it is like this' - never considering how we have all created and programmed 'human nature' and on what basis we have done so. When you stop and you draw a time line of your own life and life decisions you will see, as I have that each decision was made in a moment, for you to achieve some kind of feeling of specialness and greatness. That is why we have religion, spirituality, consumerism, culture, family, entertainment, class, relationships, friendships, sex etc - all of it exists to fuel man's desire to have a special experience, which happens in the mind and has nothing to do with the physical reality which supports us as food, water and the air we breathe.

The next question I was asked was 'other than wanting to find my self worth in amongst all the billions of people on this planet - what else directed my decisions in every moment? I answers that money was the reason why I had to make certain decisions. I looked at my life thus far. Each decision was calculated according to whether it provided me with money and if I had enough money for the month then I would pursue my hobbies like spirituality and horse riding which allowed me to feel powerful, special, at-one-with-myself. This was all based on the energy experience I would have while participating in my world. Nothing more. The rest of the time was again spent working for enough money to survive. I was fortunate enough at least to be able to make some money from my 'esoteric personality' - LOL - most people end up having to work in the system and never doing what they would like to - therefore I was grateful that I could do what I enjoyed by doing Kinesiology on people and animals. The next question was asked - how would your life have been different if you had enough money from birth to take care of all your needs - thus allowing you to fully live and express and not be dependent on anyone for survival? Wow - I placed myself in this situation and it was awesome. I would now be a completely different person and would not have made most of the decisions I had. I am now 32 and have spent most of my life abusing myself for self worth and money and have spent the last 4 years working through all the layers, just to start getting to a point of walking here in the physical, breathing.

Then we discussed - would it be possible for each human to have these life experiences you saw - if life was not about survival, but instead about living? I looked at an Equal World System, based on the principles of what is best for all - where from birth each is given an equal amount of money which provides one throughout your life with all that you require for a dignified life. Imagine that - in time all corruption and greed will have to stop because capitalism as the gaining of profit for wealth will no longer exists. The majority will stand up and decide that they have had enough of repeating the cycles of the past where we accept a capitalist system which abuses all life just so that some may become rich. It has taken us this long to create the capitalist system because at the time everyone agreed. If everyone sees eventually for themselves that there is no choice but to do what is best for all, as a decision to do what is best for self - then we will have to change the world system we have placed thus far - where we simply allowed greed to direct us.

This is why I stand for an Equal Money System. I have seen within my own direct experience of living and working in an equality based community - what is possible. I have firstly made the decision to no longer accept and allow self abuse and to take self responsibility for my world as myself. Within this I realised that I had to look at all the decisions I have made to see what they were based on. And fascinatingly enough - each decision I have made was not based on my deciding it - it was based on programming from when I was a child to survive. Each decision I have made from the religion I chose, the relationships and friendships I chose, the values I held, my beliefs, - all of it existed as part of my personality to simply survive in this world where we compete with money or the idea of 'self worth'. Change that within yourself as the definitions you allow based on the approval to be human and then you see that none of your decisions were real. Everything I did was not real because it was based on wanting to be accepted in this world simply to survive. Look here - either you have money to live, or you have to slot yourself in with what others with money want of you - whereby you will receive money from the system. It is that simple - the system functions on money therefore to survive you have to do what generates money or you have to please those who have money who support you by being someone that makes them feel in control of their lives. The cycle of money is tied in with self worth because everything costs money and self worth is created as an idea of 'things you have to have and do and be' within the system.

This is the cycle we exits in and we call this 'being human' - I find this unacceptable for the world - because I was taken from this cycle and shown what is possible. Therefore I do not just speak about an Equal Money System or Equality Based World System - as if it is a new 'fad' for me - I am living this - and in my research I use basic equations - whereby I see if an 'idea' of what is possible - can in fact be implemented for all Equally. This will not be easy - however observe the following: we have been living and creating the current system which functions according to: a system which requires the movement of money and forces each one to survive. Therefore currently we all LIVE to survive. With an Equal Money System we say let us change the system to the 'opposite' one could say which is: 'A system which supports all LIFE - therefore we will Live - and work together in doing what requires to be done for us to Live.

Although Desteni has a vast amount of Videos - of which each one is specific and relevant within its context - I chose the following videos as my ten favorites, simply because they specifically assisted me within my process of understanding myself better, within my life.

1. BEGINNING of Creation
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3oXZE0eoqUw

2. Apparitions - Spirits - Ghosts - Unexplained Phenomena
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EVBQp4ZGBVg

3. Demons - The only FREE Spirits in existence Hom36
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLOjiS3m_Xo

4. Channeling as Phenomena - what is behind it?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4f2EjoE8tis&feature=related

5. Akashic Record and the Soul
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysoQsbNwCK0

6. Esoteric and Occult World Placements
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-vuN3FjrOTo

7. Resonance as the Resident Evil
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rfu8W3LGcgc

8. Interview: DEMONS of the NOW and the FUTURE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oA-Tv4qLVug

9. Desteni I Process is Leadership Training
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iHlBa3gJv1U

10. Mathematical Proof of Desteni Equality
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MxhdDdBrKcQ&feature=related

'The Rite' - Demon Possession Movie Review

Last night I watched a movie - which is based on a 'true story'. How much of it is true I don’t know. The Rite is a 2011 supernatural horror film directed by Mikael Håfström and written by Matt Baglio and Michael Petroni.[3] It is based on Matt Baglio's book The Rite: The Making of a Modern Exorcist,[4] and stars Anthony Hopkins as Father Lucas.

The movie starts with a young man who cannot decide if he should continue with the family business - which is running a funeral home or to follow in the foot steps of 'the other side of his family' which is to become a priest.

The young man has flashes of his childhood - living above a funeral home, having to adjust to the sight of dead bodies in the basement. Then they show us a painful memory of him observing his father preparing his mother's body for her funeral. This imprinted itself on the young man's mind as one if his least favorite experiences, and when the day comes for him to decide which career path he is going to follow he dis-heartedly chooses to rather become a priest, even though he does not actually have much faith himself. The options are bleak, but a man has to eat.

So off he goes to parish-school, while pretending to get 'into the spirit of things'. A few months later he decides to rather quit because no matter how hard he tries - he just cannot convince himself of any type of religious conviction. That night while walking along a dark rainy road, he witnesses an accident in which a young girl is hit by a car. Lying on the cold road, this young girl mysteriously knows she is about to die and after noticing the young priest standing nearby, beckons for him to come closer and give her - her 'final blessing' - so that she does not die without having been blessed. One would imagine that having just been hit by a car resulting in on peeing blood from various parts of your body - that you would concern yourself with getting to a hospital - rather than having a priest bless you while you are slowly bleeding to death… but in any way continuing with the story -

The young priest is hesitant - he knows he has been lying about his faith thus far and therefore feels like he is doing this girl a major injustice. He decides to repeat some words he learned in bible class - which will allow this girl to cross over 'thinking' she has been blessed. Lovely how religion proves itself even in the movies to actually only exist in the mind of the believer. Did that girl require the priest or could she have 'blessed' herself through self forgiveness into the 'afterlife'? Did she end up in hell because the priest was actually not sincere and some cosmic counter was holding her accountable for the acts of the priest? Who knows - it's just a movie - or is it really? -How many people who have crossed over under the delusion of a godly afterlife were rudely awoken by the actuality of heaven - which is as above so below = Self.

Meanwhile - while the young priest is babbling knowledge and information and the young girl is focusing on dying - the parish-school teacher who received the young priests resignation to the parish-school earlier that day - was watching this epic moment from the side walk. The next day he asks to see the young priest (Micheal) and informs Micheal that he will not be accepting his resignation as he has a proposal for him. He explains to Micheal that he witnessed the event that unfolded the previous evening and saw within Micheal a resolve which Micheal himself was not yet aware of. Yes -at that stage I asked myself - what about the fact that the young priest was lying to the young dying girl by pretending to have faith thus pretending to bless her into the afterlife'? Is 'religious conviction' as it is depicted here the deception which is acceptable by all as long as it makes everyone believe their own beliefs?

The young priest denies such resolve and adamantly debates that he is not cut out to follow this life path. The teacher informs Micheal - that he had received a letter from the big boys at the Vatican who claim that demon possessions is on the increase and therefore - the Vatican has decided to employ one exorcist within each catholic church in each country. The teacher explains that he has been asked to select one student from this particular parish school to go for 'exorcist training' and to fulfill the role of the exorcist for that parish. He explains to Micheal that he 'knows' that Micheal is right for this position because of this special resolve thingy, which apparently if the truth were to be told - involves lying and pretending.

Eventually with some persuasion, Micheal decides to give this new career opportunity a chance and agrees to go for the exorcist training. A few days into the course - the head lecturer approaches Micheal and mentions to him that the teacher who had suggested Micheal for this course, had told the lecturer that there is a great potential within Micheal. Therefore he has decided to send Micheal to their local exorcist for 'additional hands on lessons in exorcisms'. Again Micheal confesses that he is not so sure that he should be given such high praise - as his faith is not what it should be for a man in such a position and actually believes that most demonic possession cases are caused by psychological rather than demonic problems. The lecturer suggests that he spend some time with the exorcist and then decide after having spent some time participating in real exorcisms - and if he still feels that way he may leave.

The next day Micheal goes to visit the exorcist, a father Lucas - who is played by Anthony Hopkins. The first thing that struck me here was the symbolic placement of Mr Hopkins - as he is a famous actor who is taken seriously for the roles he has played. Within the movie watcher's mind, one now places the movie into the same category as the 'high regard' one has for Anthony Hopkins as an actor. Soon after their first introductions, Father Lucas (Anthony Hopkins) introduces Michael to his first exorcism - of that of a young pregnant girl. Towards the end of the exorcism, as the young girl is leaving with her mother, Micheal notices that the demon did not leave the girl, but instead simply retreated into the girl for a moment. He questions Father Lucas about this, who responds something along the lines of 'yes, she has been possessed for a while and will continue to be so -I simply drive the demon back once in a while'. This somewhat perplexes Micheal, who proceeds to argue that this girl is not possessed and that she is simply overcome with guilt due to the fact that her father was the one who impregnated her. Father Lucas is adamant and each day tries persistently to convince Micheal that demon possession is in fact more frequent than Micheal suspects. Symbolically this shows that the christian faith have no idea what to do with demonic possession or possession of ones mind and simply indicate that the best way is to 'keep the faith

A few days later the young, pregnant girl is back. Father Lucas had warned Micheal on day one, that due to his lack of experience he should at no stage communicate with the demon, but instead do his part, which is to read the prescribed texts from his little bible. During this specific session, whereby father Lucas is driving the demon back into the girl into a state of suppression, the young Micheal decides to confront the demon head on. He interrupts father Lucas as he swears and cusses at the demon to 'leave this girl,' and starts questioning the demon as to its actual validity. They go around in circles for a while where Micheal accusing the demon of not really being a demon, unless of course he would be willing to give up his name. The demon becomes irritated and reacts by throwing various insults at Micheal. Towards the end of the discussion Micheal basically says to the demon that if he is not willing to give them their name it must mean that he is not real and that this girl is not in fact demon possessed, whereby the jury now leans towards this girl having psychological issues over the fact that she was raped. The demon becomes infuriated and later that day decides to push the baby out of the girls body leaving both her and the baby dead. The demon had now had enough of this game. Father Lucas is overcome with grief and flops into an inconsolable depression for days.

In the days to follow though, strange things start to happen around Father Lucas and Micheal. Micheal is participating daily in his lectures on how to become an exorcist and father Lucas is waddling around his parish contemplating his great screw up in allowing this young girl to die. He does not question god or jesus, whom both played star roles in the exorcisms, but instead takes it all upon himself as the one that should have been able to prevent this demon from killing the young mother and her baby. So the question there is - if one looks at the documentation of demon possessions and exorcisms over time - who actually needed god or jesus? Most exorcisms would last for days, some would end in the death of the possessed person and in all cases of demonic possession - the demon would simply play along with the possession until they got tired of yelling and performing, just to eventually leave the person's body and go find someone else. It is only within the deluded thinking of the religion person - that the beLIEf exists that the demon went to 'hell'. Have you been to hell to actually check the facts for yourself that demons go there after an exorcism? Why does it take so long to exorcise a demon? Why does the priest have to yell over and over and over and over and over for the demon to leave in the name of jesus - does the demon eventually leave because he does not want to be yelled at any more? Does the name of jesus require repetition times 5000 for an exorcism to finally take? I mean does any religious person ever stop to ask the question why a demon who is more clever and older than your average human, would be bothered by a crucifix and the name of jesus? Is a demon really both super clever and also silly as a kid around a clown the minute you lift a little silver cross? The question that should be asked is: where would demons really go after they left the person, did they ever leave?

Have Christians who vow to the validity of exorcisms and the 'name of jesus', ever bothered to climb out of their bodies to check where the demon goes? I mean, if we opened all jails cells of the worst, most meanest criminals of all times - and said 'now listen we are opening these cells so you may have a walk around but on good faith I am trusting that you will come back to your cell at 5'! Will the criminal come back to his cell at 5? No. And yet humans continue to believe that demons as they existed for thousands of years, mastering the art of manipulation - would be bothered by a silver cross and the name of a guy who died on a cross. If god and jesus were all that powerful would religious people not be able to ask upon god to stop world suffering? Regardless of what christians do - the world situation as it is still exists - nothing changes. Regardless of how many exorcisms have been done - it did not stop - thereby indicating the level of brainwashing - for religious people to believe that demons just 'up and go to hell'. The fact that demons exist - is not questioned by religious people. The fact that a god would allow a soul to be so tormented by the life on earth that they would decide to become demonic in the afterlife - is not questioned by the religious. They call it a test of faith - I call it abuse of Life. Nothing has changed - and religion and those who belong to it should be held accountable for abuse to and the condoning of the abuse to life in the name of their beliefs. I mean demonic possessions are either 'real' according to the faithful or not. Which one is it going to be - you choose - either you have been allowing the abuse of innocence -for your cause - or you stop it once and for all. Many christians like to comment on my videos saying that demons were 'created by lucifer or some dark cosmic cause. Ok, so if someone else created them and you as who you claim to really be, claim you know that this is not what is best for that being or yourself - then why do you not find a way to assist demons to no longer exist for the cause of religion? Why do you participate in the polarity of demons which is apparently 'goodness' which exists on the basis of fear of evil - which by its tacit agreement allows for the existence of demons? Why do you not stop and say to your god - assist these beings or I no longer support you? If you answer that what I am saying is 'just to much' then why are you a christian - what purpose do you serve? Has it become too convenient to use imagery and symbolic representations of what demons are to scare your children into becoming good people? If you have used any of the good/bad polarity to raise your children - then you have participated in the abused of a life form.


Now that we have covered how useless religion really is we may proceed with the movie review which shows that the whole purpose of 'evil' and the allowance of demons - and the existence of religion is to keep people trapped in hope - thus never changing the world to 'what is best for all'….

Father Lucas to his great surprise starts coughing up nails and realises that the demon is now in the process of possessing him. He contacts Micheal and explains to him that he will have to assist. Soon after Micheal arrives with one of the other students in the class, whom he had befriended - father Lucas starts showing the symptoms of full possession. This would be the point where hollywood takes demon possession to its most unrealistic level and has Anthony Hopkins' face transform into that of the demons. Other than this, I was amused by this twist in the story - where the exorcist himself becomes fully possessed - yet I realised that there will surely be an ending which will protect the christian religion - which of course would be where this young Micheal would save not only the day, but also the christian faith. The demon who was now fully in possession of Father Lucas challenges Micheal and calls him a 'doubter'. The battle is on between the clever demon whom now possesses all of father Lucas's knowledge and secret mind thoughts about Micheal as a 'non-believer' - and young Micheal, a mere freshman in the area of exorcism. One would imagine that in reality the demon would have kicked Micheals ass - but no - the movie had to turn again towards the unrealistic brainwashing that religion has been using since the beginning of civilization - and pull this old familiar rabbit out of the hat: Micheal 'realises' that if he does not 'find god' and buckle down once and for all with the old faith factor - then he will most probably be witness to the death of Father Lucas. Eventually Micheal realises that there really is no choice for him - he is not equipped to assist Father Lucas or to even deal with this demon one-on-one - and thus resort to 'fake it till you make it' by pretending all of a sudden to have found god. He experiences a sudden onset of religious conviction and feels himself filling up from inside with the holly spirit. He is a new man - completely brainwashed with belief and ready to take on the demon. He pushes out his proud chest and condemns the demon to hell in the name of jesus! At first the demon spits and cusses, eventually he jumps up and grabs the girl who had been assisting Micheal, by the neck. He does what every demon does in all of your demon possession movies and tugs at her deepest darkest memories until she is sobbing with shame. The demons get the humans each and every time. All they have to do is find that within the human which is hidden, that which has not been forgiven and that which the human so strongly beLIEves about themselves.

So - are demons the liars or do they simply present to the human that which exists within the human? Yes - the demon might pull faces and flop around occasionally spewing green goo from the possessed person's mouth - but the real fear for each human behind 'being faced by a demon' - is the fact that we don’t like what they do or say. We don’t like that they can control our minds, we do not like that they can taunt us with our deepest regrets. Most people - do not like that we actually do not know what to do with demons because religion simply offers a pretense, a clinging to faith, never actual solutions.

After the demon reduces the girl to tears, he turns his focuses to Micheal. He gnaws away at Michaels' weaknesses until finally Micheal realizes that unless he absolutely beliefs his own words - they are both screwed and Father Lucas is dead. So, he does what every religious icon in a hollywood movie does - and he calls upon god with all his might and casts that foul demon from father Lucas! The demon is expelled and all is well again. Father Lucas collapses into a deep restful sleep while Micheal and the assistant watch over him. The movie ends - showing Micheal as a fully devout priest and exorcist - and one realises - that he has now found himself and the conviction which others originally saw within him. The endless cycle of human hope continues...

Most of the movie was hollywood style over exaggeration of facts. Yes demon possessions use to exist as dimensional beings trapped within a demonic experience. What we are facing on earth now is mind possession - the mind of man as that which we have accepted and allowed. Therefore even though what is said in the movie is accurate - that possessions are on the increase - what is not accurate and is used to play on people's fears through misrepresentation - is that these possessions are caused by 'spirits' or 'demons'. Possessions are caused by the compound effect of consciousness existent within each human as the mind.

Each human which experiences a state of possession is doing so from within what they have become as their mind as all the layers existent within the conscious, subconscious and unconscious. The Mind as it has evolved over time has become a cesspool of secrets, desires, fears, control, hope, lust etc -and that eventually pushes each human through some form of 'possession' into certain life decisions. Within the DesteniIProcess we are currently designing the Subconscious Backchat phase which deals with that part of the mind which functions from pre-programming. It is nothing personal - the mind simply runs according to automated systems that we as humanity have already programmed into and as consciousness. Therefore what we have become is the demonic nature of man and this is coming through every day in the news - which does not even include what happens inside each human's mind in secret and what happens behind closed doors.

Possession is on the increase - people being driven to acts of madness due to the mind design. This will not be solved by fake words based on religion. It will not be solved with drugs and alcohol. What is suppressed and ignored and denied finds its expression through eventually becoming the physical as a state of physical possession - where the being finds themselves acting on thoughts and reactions - without knowing how to stop.

If you experience yourself becoming possessed by pictures, desires, fears, hopes, envy etc - please join us on the demonology forum - where we write ourselves to freedom through applying the tools of self forgiveness which goes hand in had with self responsibility and self honesty.

If you are religious and have some special religious messages to share with me in relation to this blog - dont bother it will not be approved - and indicates one thing - you did not read the blog and are merely possessed by fear. If you have practical, common sense insight - please discuss.

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